The most precious, important things I’ve experienced pertain to inner realizations and states. Some of the most mysterious ones are those where the people that I don’t know very well, who are more or less strangers to me seem, in a sense, more real, more concrete than the people that I’m connected with on a fundamental level (I wanted to say “visceral” but it is beyond visceral – if anything, it’s the viscerality of my very being). In those states I perceive the latter as projections of my own being, of my own heart. It’s as if the deeper I’m connected to them, the more unreal they become, to the point where I can’t tell whether they, as others, really exist, or where I end and they begin.

Do they have an external, so-called objective existence? What does it actually mean to relate to another, what does it actually mean to really meet another being? Can you relate to others beyond your perception-projection of them? If so, how can those projections be transcended totally? And if they are transcended totally, is there any other anymore? And, for that matter, is there any you left?

I remember how sometimes, during meditations, when I’d be in a certain dimension where nothing and no one else existed anymore and I was completely detached from everything, a feeling of panic would arise. Observing this serene detachment, my mind would ask: “Does this mean that I don’t love X, Y, or Z anymore?”

And yet the question was irrelevant. Because in that dimension there was no separation anymore. In a dimension where there is no separation, nothing and no one else can exist, only an undifferentiated reality. There was no one to love and, for that matter, there was no one who loved.

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